Locked out

 

I'm on the content team for our mission spanish page so I get to make a post everyday which has been fun and something to distract me! https://www.facebook.com/VeniraCristoCostaCentral?mibextid=ZbWKwL

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A few of the ladies in the english ward have started to call hermana stubbs a rat behind her back.. which is a bit awkward for me since I'm the middle man

Since the beginning I've accepted that me and hna stubbs are different. Sometimes I just have to let her step on my toes (more like stubb my toes if yk what I'm sayin jajaj). At first I thought I was doing something wrong because I wasn't being filled with this love for her when I prayed for charity or served her. I still get bugged, but as the weeks have gone on ive just been more ok with things, moving on and knowing that this transfer will end soon. 

Biranida just glows and knows this gospel is true. She has such a strong testimony that God is always. with her. I admire her so much. Continue praying for her and her little girl! 

In a personal study this week I watched the video of Jesus being crucified and I just sobbed haha. He really is our Savior. My hurt hearts that He had to go through the unfair things he did. Then He still asked God to forgive the people since they didn't know better?!?! His character is like none other. 

 

Highlights of the week

-13 people came to english class yoo it was a ball

- martin bought me and hermana stubbs bracelets from the fair. Hes so sweet 

- the mixtecan family on date came to church!! 

- At Sunday dinner hector Sr taught us spanish tongue twisters

- I locked us out of our apartment this morning we called the elders over and i distracted hna stubbs while elder sommar climbed up our balcony and got through the slide door lol

Hugs and kisses! Hermana jermaine

(@brendanlarson stop copywriting me) 

Rocks

whoops here I am again sending my letter not on pday

- Shoutout best friend madi for getting married this week!! Someone go crash their honeymoon for me. I love you mads. 

- background on birandias daughter. She's 2 years old and has special needs. She was just in the hospital for 2 weeks bc she wasn't eating. She stopped eating again so after church they were on their way back to the hospital again but presidente gave her and biranida a blessing and it was beautiful. In the daughters blessing presidente talked about how she choose to come here even though her body wasnt gonna be perfect. Me= and he said lots of other beautiful things

A few days later we called biranida at the hospital and she said she felt so mhch peace and her daughter started eating more than she has in a while! Preisthood blessings have so much power it amazes me. 

- had interviews with the mish prez and talked abt the recent struggles. He shared about becoming a bishop in an English ward when he didnt know any english and we talked abt how being stretched past what we want just sucks. (We both started crying)

During these hard days I feel like im pushing a big rock and can feel that feeling of "being overstretched". A lot of rocks are expected for a mission (comp problems, feeling inadequate, being drained, not having the comforts of normal life) but having so many at once makes it feel like a big rock. And im like, cant I be done with this overstretching haha? Its uncomfortable! But then i remember the verse "lovest thou these things more than me?" Like i said in last email, ofc i do. And then I remember that ma girl allie vaughn said love is sacrifice. And that hna Wheatley said missions are full of short term sacrifices. So here I am making sacrifices of my comfort because I love the Savior, and it's just short term! I know this transfer will pass. The Savior is always there to get me back on my feet and lead me along again, so im trying my best to continue trusting in Him.

Hugs and kisses

-hermana jerman 

Pics

- there's these sisters who live write by a family we teach so we always talk to them and hold their kitties. I love little kids more than anything

 

-martin went to the temple with the branch he had to be at the visitors center all day but he said he felt so much peace. Keep praying for him to feel like hes prepared enough for baptism

-picture of roami included bc i know you all miss her and we never go over to their house anymore 

-some dude named brendan sent me flowers.. lmk if anyone knows who that is ()

Cult vibes

Another.. week 

Biranida the one on date- i lover her so much. She's is a tuff situation rn though bc she's praying if her and her man should be married or seperated. He's toxic so pray she chooses the latter. Shes been with her youngest daughter in the hospital the past 2 weeks and her man forgot to feed the other kids pray for her daughter in the hospital and her situation! 

We put Ramon on date, and a family of 4 mixtecans. The mixtecan lesson was an experience close to something like the movie "midsommer". In the opening and closing prayer they repeated the words and then started adding their own and even after we'd say amen they kept going. The mom had her hand up like this  and I felt like I was transported to a mixtecan cult. Lovely family tho!

- I haven't been that good at daily book of mormon reading but the day I did it, I felt lighter and felt more charity for hna Stubbs. Studying the book of mormon can literally change our brain chemistry to feal happier. What a blessing scripture power is️

- this lady driving pulled up next to us and said I'm an inactive member but I've seen you walk by my store everyday and today as I saw you walking I decided it's time to come back to church. Yooo

-martin invited us to his nephews bday party (latino Fiestas go crazy) and he kept telling us how happy he was we came, and that our friendship to him is priceless. 

-a woman who wasn't even a member bought our groceries!

-played rock paper scissors with a little girl throughout a mixteco lesson 

Elder Hollands feed my sheep talk about the Savior asking Peter if he truly loves Him- elder Holland voicing the Savior is powerful. "Do. You. Love. Me." The times this week Im so drained i can barely keep my eyes open or my social battery is at 2% I think of the Savior asking me that. Do you love me? If you truly love me you can endure through these things. 

And I do truly love the savior, more than anything. So I will endure these things. 

Pls reach out I'd love to hear about your life!

Hugs and kisses 

-hermana jerman

 

 

In the middle

 Went to the Gonzalez's for wheat to say goodbye, alexis balled and then I cried on the way home haha. Gonna miss her

  

My new comp is hermana stubbs (more on her later) we re-taught biranida the word of wisdom and she said she feels like God's been preparing her bc lately she hasnt even wanted coffee and she used to be obsessed. She said she'd even dumped all her coffee stuff in the trash! She was so proud of herself and i was so hapyyy. 

Met the new mission president and his wife the Rodriguez's, they sacraficed a lot to come be our mission leaders and I feel like me and them gonna be besties

One day 3 different drunk dudes tried to hug us and there was also a homeless lady sitting at the park having a full on night show by herself. She was actually spitting facts

https://photos.app.goo.gl/HSSvQba5UfmVEo5z7  

Then we talked with this other lady at the park and she was like "that girl's got demons" then she held our hands and said a very loud prayer for us in the middle of the park lol.  

Hna stubbs my new comp- basically her personality is spanish and is amazing at it, so she's also one of the few in the mish learning mixteco. (A dialect from two Mexican towns- Gorrero and Oaxaca and for some reason they all live here in Paso. Sounds like chinese.) She's a rule follower and very fastpaced, 2 things that have been hard to adjust to. 

So ngl it's been tough the past couple weeks. Being with a superr diligent missionary whose spanish is near perfect has left me feeling idequate with my spanish and my teaching abilities. I've also felt like im not as faithful to the savior as i should be as a missionary. Comparison is tHe thEif oF jOy

Have you ever noticed that when ppl talk about their trials they tend to focus on what happened at the end or how it all worked out? That's not me yet tho im still in the middle of figuring it out, it's still hard for me to see my growth. All i do know is times like being on my knees in the bathroom praying for help is what brings me closer to the Savior, not being content. 

So if you're in the "middle" of a trial and haven't gotten to the part where you've figured it out, that's ok and literally the only way the Savior becomes real to us. We finally say ok I can't do any of this on my own, Heavenly Father I need your help. 

Later on I found out me and Stubbs share a love for potty humor! That's made us closer so thank you heavenly Father for giving me the humor of a 5 yr old 

Hugs and kisses 

-hermana jermaine 

Pics

-mexican jello- took me back to kaleens dinners in elementary school

-pure mixteco lesson (I just play peek aboo with the boy child)

-meeting our new president and his wife!

-prep day activity of POV dodgeball

- party at the park with all the drunk latino men

-alexa play scott street by Phoebe bridgers 

-this Jesus cutout in the corner of a classroom jumpscares us every day, thought he deserved a shoutout too